Thursday, June 21, 2012

Aftermath

It's been a rough week, that's for sure.
There are moments when I am fine; smiling and happy even - but just as quickly as it comes - it goes. I was never very close with my dad; in fact, I haven't seen him since the last time he visited (which was a disaster and was almost 4 years ago). He called often though and when I let the reality of no more phone calls sink in - that's when I'm truly sad.
My voice-mail inbox has 16 messages from him; none of them more than a few seconds long. When I found those is when I broke down and finally accepted the truth. He's gone. And those messages are all I have left.

This post isn't meant to be depressing; because as we all know life is short and our time is precious and the last thing you need is someone making you feel sad. This post is mainly because of the amount of support I've seen. What has blown me away throughout this whole thing was the genuine kindness of other people. The small gestures acquaintances made to show their condolences. The flowers and card a parent brought me. The thoughtful texts and emails that my friends sent. Everyone knew that they couldn't ease the pain I was feeling - that there was nothing they could say that would make me feel better, but they wanted me to know that they were there and they cared.
That means a lot to me.

So to every single one of you who had a kind word to say or a hug to give - thank you. I'm not the best at showing how much I appreciate things - but from the bottom of my heart I appreciate it all.

Next week we'll be back to regular ridiculous blog posts where I continue to make fun of my amazing and incredible boyfriend (since he loves it so much and provides me with endless material.)


Again....
Thank you. 


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